Wow! It has been quite some time since I have posted anything on here. I have been slacking and I need to get my sh*t together. Plus, my good friend Mirm motivated me yesterday and told me to keep up my blog, so here I am. I love to write, and I decided that since this is my blog, I’m going to go ahead and start writing about EVERYTHING in my life that I feel like writing about. I need to get it out somehow…so this seems like the perfect place to rant and rave about my issues for a bit.
First off, let’s start with weight loss. Since coming back from the cruise, I have gotten back into the groove of working out and eating better. I’m officially down 31 pounds as of last week. I’m excited about that and it feels really good. For the longest time, I felt like nobody was noticing and I was working my as* off. But, now you can definitely see a difference and that is a big part of what keeps me motivated.
Here are few pics from the last couple of weeks:
On to the self-help/self-therapy/whining section…
Why are certain people brought into our lives? Is it for the challenge? I know I’m probably supposed to be learning something from this, but does it have to be so difficult at the same time? I’m kind of tired of being “challenged” by these men that come into my life. When is it my turn to be happy? When do I get a turn to meet someone that is nice and wants to be with me? I don’t want someone who I THINK wants to be with me, and then I’m patient for quite some time, and then find out that instead has been dating all kinds of other women! Seriously!? A little honesty would help sometimes. I don’t ask for much, just honesty…that’s it. The “man”(if you can call him that) that I speak of was finally honest about what he wanted, but it was 5 MONTHS, yes MONTHS, later…and I had to ask him, in order to even get an answer! This has been an on-going issue in my life since I can remember. Sometimes I think that I bring it all on myself; I like to find the wrong type of guy and hope that I can change him or help him. Not exactly a good way to think, but I’m learning to find these faults in myself and move on from them.
So, my whole point to this rant is….I want to say to the World/Universe/God (via my blog that probably 4 people read) that I’m ready and open to meet someone good for me, who is nice, who wants to be around me and looks forward to it, and all that other good stuff that goes along with it. I’m also ready to realize that this could possibly never happen and if that is true, then I’m okay with that. I will be okay being alone, and I’m confident in that ß this might take some more work…but slowly I will get there. I will always have bad days (like today)…but there will also be good days where I will feel confident and good about myself. I will definitely look forward to those good days….let’s start with tomorrow. Sound good??
That’s all for today.
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